| Ok so I havn't updated in a while SUE ME!
It feels like I have been sleeping for the past 8 months and today i choose to wake up. I came to the conclusion today that i have wasted months of my life on a video game, an artifical world that some video game company invited to keep the youth of today entertained. It worked, but now i am coming to realize that there is more to life then just some video game. There are friends who i miss more then anything in the world, A girlfriend who i admit, i have been a big A-hole to, and a family who barly even knows me now.
I picked up the guitar for the first time in a long time yesterday. I was soo pissed off that day but as soon as i started playing, i felt at eaze with everything. It was like a release of all the emotion i have been bottling up for so long. It made me realize how much i miss music and my friends that i met through it. I miss AJ, Freddy, and Jack the most. I miss meeting up with them everyday and just chilling until 11 or 12 at night. I miss random jam times with AJ over at George's Music shop. I miss Jack's basement and jack's random jokes or comments, ohh and the worm hat!! I miss Freddy's singing and crazy sense of humor....your out of the band!!! safety... I miss bones, mark, bob, joe, dom, everyone. I miss shows and I miss hatfield.
I also owe an apology to the greatest thing to ever happen to me, Victori Rose Lynch. I love her more then anything in the world. It seems like i have been slowly loseing her then gaining her back, i don't want that. I want it to be what we had before. Walks in the park, getting ice cream, eating dinners, and laying around for hours talking about everything from life to love. I love you tori and i am sorry for the way i have been acting at college, over the summer, anytime that i have treated you bad or said something stupid, i swear it wasn't me!!!! I LOVE YOU
I need my life back.... |
